Tonight, I went to downtown with Garrett and a bunch of Blair kids to see the opera La Boheme. Kathryn is so awesome as always. She just came back from Stanford for a Sino-US relations conference. I met Dr. Wang and his wife, with formal outfit...I felt they might tried a little bit too hard. The opera was great in general, except for the part that reminded me about Kelly and all the drama happened this month. I should not stab the monkey though, neither should I spread the world about what I did. Now he did not have any thing left for memoir. Stupid. This whole relationship is stupid. I felt a little bit upset about Jane. Guess she might just enjoy talking about juice. I was upset because she is one of my closest friends in Vanderbilt, but the habit of gossiping is too hard to give up. I could understand. Later we hanged out in the basement piano room in Tolman, of course with Garret and Cam. It was so nice playing/listening to Chopin, Debussy and Bach. Sitting side by side with Garrett, watching his hair, his face and his fingers, I would fall in love with him immediately...how I wish he was not gay...ah, such a pity. I love classical music! love it! Graceful, romantic. I could imagine I was running in the emerald forest, wearing white dress with hair flying in the wind, running. The leaves are covered by rain drops, rays of sun could barely penetrate the trees. Hearing the rain drops bouncing on the window, listening to Debussy...feel so good. Then Jason and David came. Surprising. Jason heard my voice :). I still like Jason a little bit, oh, his delicate facial features, such a art craft. He was surprised to see me playing classical music on piano. He did not know. I am happy that he knows about it now. Then Judy came, and we all went upstairs to Jason's room. He played fiddle for us. Funny face, scary a little. Good times. In a sudden, I forgot I was in a foreign country with people of different races. Not until David started to dance to the lyrics in a Jewish way, I remembered how much cultural difference we had here. But still, we are all the same. With the same happiness, same sadness, same longing, same hopes. We are all the same. Returned to my dorm, I felt a little bit sad about my changing relationship with people this year. I am closer to Tolman right now, and Jane/Chrys are not my best friends anymore. Mayfield place is such a mess. The bitch next to my door is still pissing me off...how I wish I could have selective amnesia and forgot everything happened from beginning, the very moment Kelly confessed to me. Good news is that summer is in one week. I could get refreshed. I still long for a new relationship, maybe I just need to wait for the right moment to come. Be patient.